We all have a nervous system. Throughout the day our nervous systems get stressed and anxious and feel down and depleted. Our job is to keep our nervous system’s ups and downs within a zone that we can tolerate. If we don’t we’re gonna freak out or hit a depressive/shut down state. Self awareness is […]
Tag: God
The Sunlight of the Spirit
What is the sunlight of the spirit? It’s that feeling of comfort and peace that you get when you are fully connected to God. It’s serenity from surrendering your life to Him, giving Him complete control and trusting that He will work all things out for good. How do you get into the sunlight of […]
On Taking Things Personally
I used to take every thing personal. If a girl at school called me ugly then I believed her and thought that I was ugly. If someone told me my skin was pale then I’d make sure to do something about it. I would also take positive things personal. I felt myself get high off […]
Self Care Guilt
What is this thing that happens to me when I do something nice for myself? This immediate pang of guilt. Where on earth does this come from? Why does it happen every time? Either in a feeling of remorse for doing something nice for myself, or a feeling of guilt because I have spent an […]
When Loneliness Sets In
A common human feeling is loneliness. It can come upon you like a storm. Rolling in unexpected. There you are sitting at home, no one is calling you, no one is there to talk to. It’s just you and your lap top. The phone is silent, your thoughts start creeping in. No one loves me, […]
Let Love in Completely
Focusing on the good, on my strengths, and on the people who are ultra loving and important in my life has made a world of difference. I just started seeing an EMDR therapist named Wendi. She helped me first by making a list of people who are supportive of me. I then took the step […]
Prioritizing Connection
Being understood by someone is the best feeling in the world. Being known feels like being loved. Times in my life where people really get me make me feel alive. I feel the worst when I haven’t been understood deeply. Not being witnessed feels like abandonment and isolation. To feel reasonably happy I need to […]
Boomerang Love
I’m realizing it now more than ever, as I sit here alone drinking my green tea with my dog at my side, we are all feeling lonely. We need each other. We are caught up in the humdrum of life and are neglecting the more important pieces- relationships, conversations, lingering. We need to be more […]
Step Eleven: Meditation
Meditation is something that I have been doing for many years. In 2006 I was severely depressed. My thoughts were running a muck. “I’m ugly, I should die, no one likes me, I have no friends” these were thoughts that were on repeat in my mind. I really started believing the second thought. Suicide felt […]
Letting Go of Old Ideas
I was at an AA meeting yesterday and the topic was “Letting Go of Old Ideas”. I had a lot to say about this. The first thing that came to my mind was Fear of Authority. Every time someone tells me, “Hey, can I talk to you for a second,” and they bring me into […]
Connection Addict 