On Taking Things Personally

I used to take every thing personal.  If a girl at school called me ugly then I believed her and thought that I was ugly.  If someone told me my skin was pale then I’d make sure to do something about it.  I would also take positive things personal.  I felt myself get high off […]

Self Care Guilt

What is this thing that happens to me when I do something nice for myself?  This immediate pang of guilt.  Where on earth does this come from?  Why does it happen every time?  Either in a feeling of remorse for doing something nice for myself, or a feeling of guilt because I have spent an […]

What I Want to Be (When I Grow Up)

I’m taking a career counseling class this summer and I got inspired to write about how I ended up where I am.  I was 17 years old when I went to college.  I had no clue what I wanted to do except I knew I wanted to have a whole lot of fun.  Junior year […]

Be Like a Five Year Old

I realized last night that I really care about people. Not in a I-have-to-because-they’re-my-family kind of way but in a people matter, like really matter, way. I realized this week how fragile life can be. Our family friend was diagnosed less than a month ago with stage four pancreatic cancer and it is terminal. Sitting […]

Metamorphosis

I’ve always loved butterflies.  I love their symmetry.  I love the way they elegantly fly around with little effort, landing on flowers, and how they are so majestic.  I made a deal when my Grandad Smith died to remember him every time I saw a butterfly.  They symbolize new life.  They are new creations.  Driving […]