We all have a nervous system. Throughout the day our nervous systems get stressed and anxious and feel down and depleted. Our job is to keep our nervous system’s ups and downs within a zone that we can tolerate. If we don’t we’re gonna freak out or hit a depressive/shut down state. Self awareness is […]
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The Sunlight of the Spirit
What is the sunlight of the spirit? It’s that feeling of comfort and peace that you get when you are fully connected to God. It’s serenity from surrendering your life to Him, giving Him complete control and trusting that He will work all things out for good. How do you get into the sunlight of […]
On Taking Things Personally
I used to take every thing personal. If a girl at school called me ugly then I believed her and thought that I was ugly. If someone told me my skin was pale then I’d make sure to do something about it. I would also take positive things personal. I felt myself get high off […]
Self Care Guilt
What is this thing that happens to me when I do something nice for myself? This immediate pang of guilt. Where on earth does this come from? Why does it happen every time? Either in a feeling of remorse for doing something nice for myself, or a feeling of guilt because I have spent an […]
What I Want to Be (When I Grow Up)
I’m taking a career counseling class this summer and I got inspired to write about how I ended up where I am. I was 17 years old when I went to college. I had no clue what I wanted to do except I knew I wanted to have a whole lot of fun. Junior year […]
Be Like a Five Year Old
I realized last night that I really care about people. Not in a I-have-to-because-they’re-my-family kind of way but in a people matter, like really matter, way. I realized this week how fragile life can be. Our family friend was diagnosed less than a month ago with stage four pancreatic cancer and it is terminal. Sitting […]
Let Love in Completely
Focusing on the good, on my strengths, and on the people who are ultra loving and important in my life has made a world of difference. I just started seeing an EMDR therapist named Wendi. She helped me first by making a list of people who are supportive of me. I then took the step […]
Metamorphosis
I’ve always loved butterflies. I love their symmetry. I love the way they elegantly fly around with little effort, landing on flowers, and how they are so majestic. I made a deal when my Grandad Smith died to remember him every time I saw a butterfly. They symbolize new life. They are new creations. Driving […]
Prioritizing Connection
Being understood by someone is the best feeling in the world. Being known feels like being loved. Times in my life where people really get me make me feel alive. I feel the worst when I haven’t been understood deeply. Not being witnessed feels like abandonment and isolation. To feel reasonably happy I need to […]
Boomerang Love
I’m realizing it now more than ever, as I sit here alone drinking my green tea with my dog at my side, we are all feeling lonely. We need each other. We are caught up in the humdrum of life and are neglecting the more important pieces- relationships, conversations, lingering. We need to be more […]
Connection Addict 